I'm feeling a bit rubbish

So not much blogging going on.

On the plus side, as from 5.30 this evening I have 11 days off work for Christmas.

I am hopeful that this will make me feel much better and I shall bounce into 2010 with a spring in my step and feel much happier.

Merry Christmas everyone. xx

2 posts in a day! Whatever next?

Do you ever have a hard time deciding who you want to be? rather than just being you and doing it?

Like I want to learn and do new things, which I see as parts of a new me because they are new and will make me who I will become once I have learnt them!

Making sense?

Nope didn't think so!

There are just so many things I want to do, and therefore become, that I'm a little confused at where to start.

This is where my impatience kicks in again. I want them all now, I want to be fabulous at everything, but with as little effort from me as possible.

Now that just never going to happen, I know this, you know this we all know this. But my brain does not want to take any notice of it, and wants things its way! Its not going to happen that way... cue crossing arms, pouting lips and frowning.

'Why not'

'just because ok, just because!"

'humph'

So what to do? slap myself round the face and get on with things.

Or, curl up in a ball, under the furry blanket, sulk, feel sorry for myself, sulk some more, possibly eat some chocolate, definitely eat some biscuits, with a cup of tea. Until finally I get fed up of sulking and nothing happening so I slap myself round the face and get on with things. For a week at least, until the same thing happens all over again...

Tea and biscuits anyone?

Dazed and Confused

It seems to me that most bloggers, or at least the writers on the ones I read, really do seem to have stuff sorted!

They know who they are, what they like, and generally what direction they want their lives to take, and are happily on that road. Of course there are a few bumps and potholes along the way, but generally they are heading in the direction they want to be.

I on the other hand, feel like I am stuck at spaghetti junction, have just been hit by a rather large truck, and am sitting on the side of the road with a map that seems to be in some alien language. Completely confused, completely bewildered and with a horrible headache!

Oh and the weather is bad so its a bit foggy too!

(ok the headache is a development of today, and the being hit by a truck is the cold I seem to be developing despite all my best efforts to make it go away!)

Now perhaps this is actually how everyone feels, others are just really good at hiding it, where as I just stand there looking slightly dazed.

At the moment, instead of looking forward to Xmas holidays for all the yummy food, sparkly lights and general merriment. I am just looking forward to the break and having some time to get my brain back on track and rejuvenate myself.

Now back to work, my cup of tea is getting cold. :)

*picture by Edward Monkton.